Thought I knew my mind like the back of my hand.
The gold and the rainbow, but nothing panned out as I planned.
They say it’s never too late but you don’t get any younger.
I better learn how starve the emptiness and feed the hunger.”
Here I am, back at square one.
Last year, I lost Scootergate, a beloved hard drive with a decade’s worth of files, scripts, story ideas, website code, photos, music and movies. To say it was devastating would be to lessen the impact it had. But that’s ok, right? I held on to that drive in the hopes that one day it could be revived.
Last week, I lost the webserver I’ve been hosting my sites on for nearly as long. This… I can’t recover from. There are no backups. There are no recovery options. It’s gone. I might be able to find a smattering of HH2B webcomics around. Maybe the Internet Wayback machine has some articles cached.
For the most part, at this point, everything I’ve written on the internet (that isn’t on other people’s sites) is just gone.
If you know me, you know that I’m accustomed to loss, and to losing everything. That doesn’t make it easier. It doesn’t make it right. But it gives me the understanding and knowledge of what I need to do.
So here we go. One more time. Genesis 1:1. The beginning.
I hope we can be friends. I have so much I want to share.
And there’s always retrospect
(when you’re looking back)
To light a clearer path
Every five years or so I look back on my life
And I have a good laugh
You start at the top
Go full circle round
Catch a breeze
Take a spill
But ending up where I started again
Makes me want to stand still.”